Oh hell yeah, I'm pretty expensive!

2012-01-30T01:42:00.001+08:00

To forget is a choice you make, don't blame it on faith.

2012-01-30T01:34:00.001+08:00

Why has forgetting became so damn easy? Is life and people meant any more lesser than it used to? Life just gets even more complicated as it passes by. I swear I do not get people these days. Are they really that fickled minded? Where's the beliefs? Where's their own stands? Doesn't make much sense. Its as if people are slowly, crawling into this whole wormhole of dumbness! Its irritating to see people change, people forgetting whats right and wrong. Forgetting how good deeds are suppose to be remembered and not forgotten. How good people and good hearts are suppose to be treasured and not thrown away. When your closest love ones can change, why wouldn't total strangers change right? And whats so bloody nice about saying 'k' ey? Like what I've been told, uttering the word 'k' is as if you're indirectly saying fuck off la. Come on get the balls to say what you feel. You owe the person, fine. Settle it and I'll walk off and you could live your bloody lives. I'm sick and tired of all the drama, all the stupid lies, fakers. Whats done is done? Yeah, looks are put first nowadays. You dont own that you're ignored, put down, thrown aside, treated differently. It truly doesn't make sense la. I've made my share of mistakes but that doesn't make me any less human! No one's perfect. Get that into your head first la! Your rumours killed whatever confidence I had. Gaining it made me go a long way. Now I'm on a new path, new people and all but these stupid, stupid, stupid memories never stop haunting me. It aint easy when you try to move on and you the changes you make brings difference and better tomorrows but its always appears the other way around. It hurts. Deeply it really does. Its been a while since I thought this much. But when everyone's doing the same shit, it hurts even more. With the hopes of hoping that someone would see you for who you are and not what you'd become or what they expect you to be. When I cried the last time bout this, you came by and wiped my tears, picked me up and if I do tell what I've done you'd tell me I told you so! But I just thought they weren't the same but yeah what you said was true. They'd never value what they've got til they've lost it. They need slaps in their faces to wake up. I don't want to say more but this is all. Oh, I'm just gona go layan a movie la FTW and goodnight haters! I'm just gona be patient til the time comes. You just wait and see la k?

Pain in the ass

2012-01-27T18:22:00.001+08:00

Can you kindly quit being a pain in the ass? Please and thank you :D

DIAL MY DIGITS LA DUDE! :D

2011-12-13T18:51:00.001+08:00

Yeah, everytime my telephone rings how I wished it was you. Only you .

Yeah, its all you and I hate it.

2011-12-13T18:49:00.000+08:00

BE MY GINGERBREAD MAN WILL YOU?

Roses for my 19th Birthday

2011-12-13T18:37:00.002+08:00

Get me roses for my birthday will you Sayang? :)

Falling hard.

2011-12-02T22:19:00.000+08:00

Every step you take, every move you make, every word you say, its always crucial. At times you try to be so careful not to hurt the other. You make sure you've said everything right and you keep things true and clean and the right way perhaps. And you ask why do you have to fall? Why do you like? Why do you want it? Whats so different of this person? Whats so special? Why are you so obsessed? What got you so interested? Well the questions never will end. Its like magic to fall but it gets ugly when things go out of hand. So, fall carefully! :)

Yes or No?

2011-11-23T20:48:00.000+08:00

There's one thing about me, I never like changes! Period.

For good or bad but even when the smallest changes effect me big time.
Neways, I'm hoping for the best. I just do not have the heart to walk back there. So, all the good signs please be with me. I'm praying real hard.

Where's my shooting stars? I need them now! :/

Dear GH

2011-11-22T15:30:00.000+08:00

Even if I roamed the whole planet, I will never find someone like you.

Thank you for being there for me.

Thank you for helping me stand.

Thank you for showing me who I am.

You're indeed very special and very near to my heart!

I love you buddy.

My GH always!

All day, every day :)

Coffee #adrenalinerush

2011-11-22T12:11:00.000+08:00

Who doesn't drink coffee? :)

Dream chasers.

2011-11-21T04:01:00.001+08:00

Have you ever thought what dream chasers actually do? Do you think a dream chaser would chase you out of my dreams? #justwondering :)

New hair?

2011-11-21T03:40:00.000+08:00

So should I get highlights and pimp up my hair? Its time I got a new hair do. A new colour to represent to hotter me right? By new year! Yes, mum's said yes so ya, new hair here I come weeeeee :D

Then I shall camwhore with my blue nails ;)

Locked inside my heard shaped box.

2011-11-21T03:30:00.000+08:00

Locked inside my heart shaped box is;

- every memory of you
- every song I sang for you
- every day I spent thinking of you
- all the little words I cherished
- all things that made me smile
- the oh so ugly moments we had
- the laughs we shared
- the tears you wiped
- the smiles you created
- the bond we bulit
- the life we lived
- the love we loved
- the us which we thought never would have ended

But indeed through this very single heart shaped box, it shall live on. And if you ever miss it, take a peek into this little heart shaped box and you'll get a chance to relive it all again. Awesome right? Oh how powerful this little heart shaped box is right? This little heart shaped box is for you and me

Do not mess with me. Period.

2011-11-21T03:07:00.000+08:00

Please do the honours of removing yourself from my personal space! Like right now! You're a pain in the ass and I no longer wana see you around. Thank you. You do not want to see me get violent. So, do as I say asap.

2011-11-21T02:59:00.000+08:00

Shawty's like a melody in my head that I cant keep out got me singing nananana everyday!

Did I tell you how much I love love love this song? Sing it to me some day aite?

Who am I telling it to? Well no one in particular but if you ever read this Mr, you know what to do.
Go firgure :)

Dear Blog,

2011-11-21T02:48:00.000+08:00

I hate it when its 3am and I just wish I had someone to call dumb dumb! Weird but hey I'm sure weird and my speakers are still blasting. What to do now? I'm bored damn I've restarted blogging again. Aite, lets make it a daily ritual shall we? Yeah, speaking to you oh my dear blog is way comforting at least I know its all coming out and I aint storing or hiding anything inside.

Oh yes I see things differently now.

2011-11-21T02:43:00.000+08:00

Some things seem so clear right now but yes the truth always hurts but isn't it part of life to fall a million times and get back up all on your own? I'll be who I wana be. I know who's worth dying for, who's fighting for, who's worth every ounce of love, who's just a piece of shit, who's just bugging your life and who's just not worth your every second. Like how clouds pass by, people pass by too. You can never grab a cloud and force it to stay. Likewise, people aren't meant to stay. At some point they'll all leave. Hold on to yourself more than anything else. Love yourself more than anything else. Stop blaming the world. Look into the mirror, and ask what more can you do to at least try to be close to perfect. Please yourself. Then think of pleasing others. Looks aren't everything. It might be the most important thing right now but in a few years time, a decade perhaps, nah things change. Think and you'll know there's a lot more than just right now. Only if you pay a little attention.

One thing's for sure; I'll never trust you

2011-11-21T02:33:00.000+08:00

I can never know if the person sitting next to me is someone I can trust. Someone who I can just give my everything and who'll love me and who'll be there with me through it all. Cause I know I'm not right all the time. I make mistakes. I fall. I crawl. I cry. I smile. And without all this, it just wouldn't be growing up and it just wouldn't be life. I'm glad with what I have I now and I don't need the world to survive. I just need that few people who'll stand by me no matter what. I'll never be perfect but look I'm not gona let you bring me down. I do not care anymore. I'm just living my life and from now its only gona be shared with those I want to and yes Imma be selfish. I'm stronger now. I'm standing on my own now. Just buzz off will you? Even if you don't, for the first time I'm walking away. I've got better things to do. Sorry, I have a life unlike you.

I do not regret.

2011-11-21T02:24:00.000+08:00

I do not regret not having someone to say I love you each night. I do not regret not having someone to cry to all the time. But I swear I've been to taught to love and perhaps some day when the one who deserves comes around, he'll get it all. All these sweet lines, all those sweet kisses. Alright, enough with the details for now but Imma wait la. I've got nothing to loose baby. I'm all chilled and enjoying what I have now. I'm no bitch. I'm no slut but I know have to my fun. Burn on haters. Loves :)

Melt me with a Puppy?

2011-11-21T02:16:00.003+08:00

Is it too much to ask if I want my love to somehow come to me in the future, I mean when the time's right, come knocking on my door with a lil puppy in his hands saying 'Love, I know we're probably too young, too dumb or too in love to know whats right and whats wrong now but why can't we just be us and spend whatever time we have left on this planet together and yes we're too young too make babies but hey it'll be cool if you're the mother to my kids. You'll be one cool mummy! You make sure I'm a good daddy k? And for now lets have this puppy mark the beginning of us and each day you see it grow you'll know that my love will never be less but its constantly growing and I doubt it will ever stop. I know we can't be together all the time as we both know we have our other priorities now but hey this little guy here is gona be with you all the time. All day, all night. He's your buddy. He'll be my best man when we get married some day. So, will you accept this puppy and me?' ♥

2011-11-21T02:08:00.000+08:00

The moon greets you every night and the stars come along too. I might not greet you each day but Hey, you do run around my mind and I cant seem to chase you out. Do I run through yours? Well, if I do. I’m sorry but I like being there. Its real comfy you know? As much as the moon lightens up the dark skies, I can never deny that you light me up. Don’t stop aite.

2011-11-21T02:05:00.001+08:00

Sorry I don't copy paste, I think, write and I quote my own quotes.

Sincerely, Me.

I'm just way too young to fall in love!

2011-11-21T02:03:00.001+08:00

I’m clueless. You came by and you disappeared for a while after. But now you’re back. And I cant confidently say that all I do and say is true or right cause I aint perfect but one thing’s for sure, I do like you Mr.

So for now piece of advice, like whoever you want, flirt with whoever you like but when the time's right and you just cant fight those feelings, then fall in love! And you'll never fall apart :)

2011-11-21T02:00:00.000+08:00

And yet again I’m confused. I don’t wana get lost in my emotions again. Its hard to find my way out all the time. I wana find a breakthrough. A way to handle all this love. A way to store away all this affection. But hey I’ve learned that life goes by whether you like it or not. And not everyday you’ll have all the answers to all your questions. At times you just got to chill, lay back, relax and let life do its job. So yes, the weekend’s around the corner. Lets just take a little time out from all the brain storming, head turning, tiring moments of life and chill with your loved ones because it doesn’t matter what you’re doing or who you’re with it, just make the best out of it. Smile people, weekend’s here :)

EH HOLD UP, weekends over :'(

2011-11-21T01:41:00.000+08:00

whoever's left you or whoever who doesnt remember you today might think of you of and on

and ego isnt meant to be owned 

but ego's mains job is too teach you how to handle it

you can handle yourself, you can handle everything

so whatever it is on your mind

im no mind reader but ya something's bothering you

so chill, think it out

when you need a friend who aint gona let her ego rule you, just dial my number up or text me up

I'm here to listen 

Ps: no matter how much you break me and bring me down I'll always be here for you. Remember that

2011-11-21T01:40:00.001+08:00

Let me love down. Hey no dirty, double meanings. Its just me saying let me love you til im down on the ground and I’m no longer breathing. Yes, Imma love you til my last breath.

2011-11-21T01:38:00.000+08:00

You very very very beautiful. I very very very beautiful. I disturb. You disturb? Come we disturb.

PS: Need a pick up line? Use this! HAHA

Even When My Hair's All Grey

2011-03-16T23:03:00.002+08:00

I would love to spend every moment of my life with you and lets spend the rest of our lives being us and just spreading the love Baby! Wanna join me? Just me and you forgetting the rest of the world.

Here comes the bride :)

2011-03-16T22:30:00.003+08:00

Well, that song has always been one of my favorite lullabies but who knows I might be waking up one day finding myself in a beautiful white gown walking down the aisle. So, pick a wedding dress for me will you?

PS: Get me a ring first k? I know thats on your list but did I tell you I love you baby!

I guess you remind me of Coffee.

2011-01-31T20:33:00.002+08:00

Its to change what I believe in!

2011-01-31T20:19:00.002+08:00

Yes, I got way too attached to you and now I've just lost all my hope in love. Well, its time I quit playing love games. Its starting to bore me out and I wouldnt want to stop believing that love can last.

1. E was definitely one hell of an experience.

2. But then there was always S who just thought he was right.

3. Then SB always haunts me.

4. SH, D, K, M and all the rest have just made me sick.

I'm just tired of their stupid jokes and its time they started growing up and leaving me alone. Am I doing the right thing? I will never really know if this is all meant to be and I'm just going with the flow. Too lazy and tired of sitting and crying over some shit anyways. So, I'm doing ok and I believe things will get better and I'll be just fine :D

ITS BEEN AGES!

2010-12-10T16:38:00.002+08:00

We're going to party like its 2012 now!!!
Imma let the songs blast the speakers!
Imma let my heart and soul relax for a bit!
I better get my list of things to do after SPM out now!

Well, lets get serious now.
I'm seriously going to miss those bitches and sluts from school! The shit we together is and will always be the best memories! I'll always be that so called innocent girl people know but you bitches will know that I'm the wild chick hiding! Heart you guys!

Penang! Wow, you're giving me more reasons to live now! Will continue blogging after a swim :D

Can't Wait!

2010-10-30T00:23:00.004+08:00

Apart from all the havoc, I'm still smiling :)

When you're down, consider this.

When I hear somebody sigh, "Life is hard," I am always tempted to ask, "Compared to what?"

Its just weeks away! I'm pretty cool about it all but the tension's rising and well I'm getting real scared. Anyways, life's going pretty well. I'm glad with what I have. Thanks for all the love people! A life lived in love will never be dull. You complete me. You give me reasons to live. Love you. Love the world. Spread the love!

It's only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth -- and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up -- that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it was the only one we had. So, live life to the fullest! Don't regret a moment!

2010-10-25T23:55:00.001+08:00

2010-10-25T23:49:00.001+08:00

Mr Martini :)

2010-09-26T21:08:00.003+08:00

I saw you passing by,
You caught my attention,
Ferraris and Lamborginis became our topic of conversation.

Our experiments are my new addictions.
You're my partner in breaking traditions
And you're my new obsession.

You make me laugh. You make me smile.
And yes, I've made you mine.
Obviously sharing you is not something I will do.
But will you?

If I were a song, you'd be the lyrics.
If I were the rhythm, you'd be the beat.
If I were a lock, you'd be the key.
If I had a chance to tell you how I truly feel
I'd tell you that I now thank God for giving me this great gift of having you.

Today I'd promise you that I'll be your crying shoulder, love's suicide, crap partner probably better when I'm older and I'll be the greatest fan of your life. I heart you!

My Senses Do Come Alive When You Kiss Me!

2010-09-17T21:13:00.003+08:00

You made my day. You certainly did.

You made me smile.

You made me wonder.

You cleared my doubts and Yes, you proved yourself.

I hope you're not another mistake.

You do make my heart sing.

You do make me blush.

You do make me float on cloud 9.

I do love you!

Pass Me A Glass Of Martini Will You?

2010-09-12T17:46:00.004+08:00

Perhaps some martini would help heal the pain? Well, shopping does have that special power of turning my frown upside down. Thanks to my wonderful brother who actually had the patience of tagging along. Didnt buy much but ya I'm smiling. I'm glad I'm going away for a few days. Lets bring the house down baby! I'm ok. I'm over you. You can go fuck yourself aite? Imma be rocking out while you're gone. You lost me. Your lost not mine. I'm loving every second of now. I'm free and I've got loads of other serious stuff on my mind now. Hey you Mr, you're just too lame. I'm sorry but you're no longer on my mind nor in my heart. So this is it. Hope you have a great life ahead of you. Goodbye aite? To all those you held my hand through last night, thank you so much and I heart you guys!

Ps: Yes, I'm no longer taken and I'm enjoying every second of now. I'm glad I have you guys :D

Its Over.

2010-09-12T03:55:00.003+08:00

Well you wanted it this way and I guess you're happy. So, yes it was total bullshit before this! Oh damn, you're a fucking good actor. Life goes on. Yes, I'll miss you and the way you made me laugh. The tickling feeling you made me feel. Well not all dreams come true. I'm glad you're gone. I'm gona focus on what's important now. So ya fuck you and fuck the so called love you said we had. Loving is hell and yes flirting is bliss.

PS: I dont wish to be taken for now. I want time for myself and only myself.

This Just Might Be A Confession

2010-09-11T17:07:00.003+08:00

I am nowhere near perfect. I eat when I'm bored. I fall for boys easily. I'm vulnerable to believing lies. I'm hoping that one day I won't need a fake smile. I live by quotes that explain exactly what I'm going through. I make up excuses for everything. I have best friends and enemies. I have dramas and memories. Well, thats life. Live it. Love it. Learn from it.

PS: I love you la loose! I hope you know that :D

I'm Yours.

2010-08-30T21:02:00.006+08:00

You came into my life without a warning.

You mean the world to me now.

You sing. You joke. You sing.

Your flaws. Your smile.

You've got me falling hard for you.

People might say a million things about us or you,

But I'm going to take the risk and trust what we have.

Thank you for coming and rocking my life.

I can't wait to meet you next!

Love you Loose! :D

Well, Things Arent Always That Sweet.

2010-08-09T19:41:00.002+08:00

The whole once upon time fairytale ending shit did come to an end. The drama which took place got me speechless. My heart's still beating fast. Your words haunt me. I'll never be the same again. What you did and what you said has left scars but what the hell right? Scars heal but mine dont. So, thanks for being such a jackass. Yes, I did love you but nothing's forever. I will never know if what you felt or what you said was true. But I never lied. I've always been me. Fuck off will you? Whatever you did is clearly insane and I'll never forgive you. I shall bury you in my past.

Note: I'm no longer taken.

It's Friday, I'm in Love.

2010-08-07T03:25:00.008+08:00

Don't Haunt Me.

Your sweet words are definitely haunting my thoughts right now.

I want you here now.

That One Heart.

You're that one heart I want.

And out of all the hearts, I picked yours.

Dance Baby Dance.

You made me dance,

You made me float,

You made me smile,

But most of all,

You made me love.

Love Is In The Air Isn't It?

Love is definitely in the air!

It Might Just Be A Permanent Heartbreak.

Oh, the heartbreak's over!

What Hurts The Most.

Nothing hurts when you're around.

Music Is Like Coffee To My Senses.

You are the music to my senses.

It's Simple.

It's Easy.

All I wish to say is,

I Love You.

Note: If you're reading this and wondering. Well, yes I'm taken :)

Music Is Like Coffee To My Senses

2010-08-04T20:03:00.004+08:00

Worldstage was awesome! It was totally off the hook! Bunkface, Wonder Girls, Tokio Hotel and Katy Perry rocked the stage! I'm head over heels for Peacock! Can't wait for its release! It was definitely worth it! Spending it with you, Piggie, made way more special. Love you Dei!

Music Is Really Like Coffee To My Senses! :D

What Hurts The Most.

2010-08-03T19:58:00.002+08:00

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok

But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I'm doin' It

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still Harder

Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you

That's what I was trying to do

It Might Just Be a Permanent Heartbreak.

2010-07-27T19:15:00.005+08:00

I was much better off before I met you,
Now you're with her.
It pisses me off that you're a-okay
and all that I've got is permanent heartbreak.

Love Is In the Air Isn't It?

2010-07-22T21:46:00.003+08:00

love is in the air
birds fly and floating fair
clouds smile from above
kisses flew out of love

love is in the air
scents escape from his hair
twinkling angel eyes
make heartbeats jump twice

love is in his smile
i watch them from the aisle
beams heavenly grace
soul of angelic face

love is in my mind
fantasy of a kind
burning half my soul
the essence of my all

love is in our hearts
when sound of music starts
escaping through the air
and love is everywhere
oh, love is in the air!

PS: I might just happen to Love You and Only You :)

Dance Baby Dance.

2010-07-21T21:05:00.015+08:00

It started off with me standing on your feet.

Holding you tight through every step you took.

I was afraid yet you made me feel good.

We took baby steps and we glided across the floor.

I felt the rhythm living in me.

Thanks to you, Now, I Dance.

I feel it in me now.

Try turning on the music, you'll see what happens.

Its just the adrenalin rush I feel when the beats on.

Words cant really explain it.

Its like you're floating at the same time falling.

Its like you're falling in love and you're dreaming on cloud 9.

Whats left to do?

Absolutely nothing.

Just let the beat and moves take over.

Let my soul live through the dance I dance.

I'm officially a Dance Addict.

So, would care for a dance with me?

That One Heart.

2010-07-21T20:21:00.006+08:00

Out of all the hearts, I picked yours.

Don't Haunt Me.

2010-07-21T20:03:00.004+08:00

Every time I close my eyes

Its you I see.

Only you.

I miss those moments where I knew you were mine.

I miss you.

I lost myself when you left.

And now I miss me.

I want you back.

Come back will you?

A Day With My Piggie

2010-07-19T18:40:00.006+08:00

I had a great time with you, Piggie! We crashed mgs, capsquare and pavilion in just a few hours. We aint that bad kan? Yes, we should and could have gone to sab and mbs punya iu but then mgs would have been so bored without us there! So, minus the asses and jerks we met and bumped into on our way, I think A and A was truly worth it! Thanks to the coin! :)

We should do this more often! Wait til I drive! We'll roam around the city like devils aite? I love you woman! Thanks for making 17th a day to remember! We're the hottest bods in town kan? :P

You're the Green Bug and I'm the Blue Jellyfish.

I'm Going My Own Way.

2010-07-19T17:47:00.004+08:00

I just wanted to take one last time and blog about you. Its time I moved on. Its time you became history.

I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try somehow the plan
is always rearranged

It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok...

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place
in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away

I'm leaving today 'cause I've
gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok...

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

You:
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?

Me:
What about trust?

You:
you know I never wanted to hurt you

Me:
and what about me?

You:
What am I supposed to do?

Me:
I gotta leave but I'll miss you

You:
I'll miss you

Me:
so
I've got to move on and be who I am

You:
Why do you have to go?

Me:
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

You:
I'm trying to understand

Me:
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now

You:
I want you to stay

Me:
I wanna go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am

You:
What about us?

Me:
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

You:
I'm trying to understand

Me:
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
I gotta go my own way

You'll always be in my heart. I truly do miss you but I'm going to go my way now. Sorry but I'm done waiting.

I Miss You

2010-07-10T01:44:00.003+08:00

I miss your voice,

I miss the way you speak,

I miss your ringtones,

I miss your jokes.

I miss your gifts,

I miss your smile,

I miss your face,

I miss the way you stared at me.

I miss the way you scolded me,

I miss how much you cared,

I miss your love,

I miss having you around.

I miss the way you made me smile,

I miss you saying sorry,

I miss everything about you,

I miss you like hell.

Its hell without you. I just wish you were here, holding me through all this. If only you were here... I miss you..

I Have A H.P

2010-07-07T21:43:00.003+08:00

Lets see My H.P has been with me for quite some time.

And what can I say about her?

She's awesome.

I heart her and I so cant wait to hang with her.

Thanks for everything honey.

We shall wear bikinis and hang out some day k?

People shall watch and burn...

I love you, H.P

Bila nak party ni? Hahaha :P

My I.B.C

2010-07-07T21:28:00.003+08:00

I was determined not to be caught again.

But here I am, once again.

You are really a sweet talker.

In a few hours, you definitely swept me off my feet.

With your simple ways and complicated you,

Here I am, falling for you.

Hope I'm right this time.

Guess what, I think I might just have an Itsy Bitsy Crush on You.

Senorita

2010-07-05T02:39:00.003+08:00

Lady in the red saree,

Looking smashing.

She caught everyone's attention.

She was indeed smoking hot.

He went up to her,

Held her hand and said,

Hey you Miss Sexy, could we have this dance?

She said Yes and thats how the night started.

You and Me.

2010-06-03T12:54:00.003+08:00

You and Me.

Under the moonlight we'll rock.

I might just do the opposite.

2010-06-03T12:50:00.002+08:00

Don't you break my heart,

Coz I might just break yours.

One hell of a Night

2010-06-03T12:45:00.001+08:00

What a night! Thanks Ma.

Spot me? :D

Sweep Me Off My Feet

2010-06-03T12:40:00.001+08:00

Will you ever cross the skies for me?

What is it that runs through your mind?

2010-06-03T12:36:00.002+08:00

I want to have this kind of moment with you too.

Is it possible? :P

Lets Rock it.

2010-06-03T12:28:00.002+08:00

Lets make this last.

Lets make the best out of this.

One chance is all we've got.

You dare to take the risk?

We've had our memories.

Its time we made new ones.

Don't stop me!

2010-06-03T12:23:00.003+08:00

Have you seen the way I rock?

Well the reason I rock this much is you.

You, you, you...

Wanna join?

Rocking isnt that bad after all.

I'll miss you.

2010-06-03T12:17:00.004+08:00

You came, you stayed and you rocked every minute of it.

Thanks for everything. Rock on aite? :)

Tell me where did you come from?

2010-06-03T12:07:00.005+08:00

I sat down wondering.

Then you came into my mind.

I smiled wide.

Those days when there was only you and me were paradise.

So, tell me how did you find me?

How did an angel like you pop into my life?

I'm loving everything about you.

Mesmerise me will you?

Everything We're Not

2010-06-03T11:50:00.005+08:00

This is how we completed each other

So, relativity it is.

I'll see you in my dreams, Waiting to say,

I miss you and I'm so sorry.

Cause in my mind,
Its always You, You, You.
Its like being Love Sick.

Someone then asked me if I missed you,
I didn't answer.
I just closed my eyes and walked away.
But then in my heart I whispered, "So Much".
I miss you more than words can say.

Love is nothing. It's pathetic yet its a sensation.
It's fragile yet its everything. It's unpredictable yet its life. It's full of sorrow yet its passion.
It's cruel yet its a treasure. It's a drug yet its a flame. It's complex yet its unconditional.
It's blind yet its affection. It's blind yet its happiness. It's a mystery its real.

Now I believe,
Don't fall for someone unless they're willing to catch you.

On top of everything,
I'm going to smile like nothing is wrong,
Talk like everything is perfect,
Act like it is all a Dream,
And pretend it is not hurting me at all.

I always thought to never give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about.
But now I know. Giving up is necessary.

Nobody understands how much I miss you.
I miss how much we used to talk
and I miss the things we used to do.
I try not to admit to myself
That I still feel this way.
Nobody knows that I still wake up
Thinking of you each day.
I still think of you and I really do miss you.
I would give up everything I have
To be everything we're not.

The truth is I truly miss you and I just do not know what am I going to do without you?

No One's Perfect

2010-01-23T00:25:00.003+08:00

I sit here thinking when's life really going to satisfy me,

I sit here wondering are dreams ever going to fulfill me,

I sit here smiling as flashes of those days run through my mind,

I sit here and realise why am I even sitting here?

When there's a whole world waiting out there,

When there seems to be so many chances and possibilities,

When there's me and my needs,

And thats when I realised no one's perfect.

I am who I am. I sit and gaze of my future.

I'm looking forward for that future I always see.

But, there's now for me to think about.

There's you in my thoughts too.

Why are you even there?

What are you doing in my thoughts?

And thats when I realised even my thoughts arent perfect.

I start humming a tune which seems pretty familiar and sense something amiss.

That tune reminds me of something.

I feel the beat of that tune taking over inside of me.

It gets stronger and there a song comes out from within

But that song wasnt what I was looking for

And thats when I realised even the music in me isnt perfect.

People pass by, they say hi and as normal I say hi back.

I saw you and I thought I knew you

But not all thought are always true.

I listened whenever you spoke hoping to learn more,

But then when things got a little complicated, wrong, messy

And thats when I realised even others arent perfect.

So, if no one and nothing is perfect, who are we trying to fool by putting in on masks, acting nice and trying to be perfect? Life's never perfect. Accept the facts, hide the lies and live on. Remember, no one's perfect.

Hello :)

2010-01-13T17:29:00.003+08:00

Its been almost a month since I last blogged but here I am updating it now. Intervensi's next week and it sucks. The tension is all ready is rising even though its just 2nd week of school. I'm really sleep deprived now yet and I'm still smiling. I'm glad I have you and you know why I always say this. Slowly I look forward for you each day. So, stay dont you dare go away! Senior year is going pretty well forgetting the homework pile awaiting me and the whole exam chapter. I've been suffering from a lot of blurness lately and I feel myself getting wild! Months are passing by and its going to be a year in no time. I'm pushing myself away from that topic but I'm afraid and I just hope I'll pull myself through. Finally to those who rock my world, I just want to say I love you all so much :D

I'm Smiling Wide :D

2009-12-09T19:33:00.002+08:00

I had the time of my life in India! Words truly cant express how I feel. Cant wait to go back there again. With you there, you really treated me like a princess and you made that strange place feel so much like home for me. Thanks for everything! Well, Im glad Im back. So much has happened and I just feel really fresh. I missed everyone and everything back here! I love you all who missed me! I missed you too! Well cant wait to rock so rock on with me will you?

I'm Smiling Wide

2009-11-02T20:54:00.002+08:00

I have gone through alot this year and now having you makes things much easier. Well, I still miss you Pa. No one would ever be able to replace you. Other than that I cant be bothered by those ignorant individuals. As I always say, you want me come get me. I'm happy. I dont regret anything so I'm just living life. You wanna join my carefree life? :D

Let it be a secret

2009-10-24T12:38:00.003+08:00

Well, finals over which gives time to rephrase, indulge in silence and just live my life. Loving everything and everyone in it now. Glad to say time is passing its going to 8 months and I'm still standing so I'm surviving. So going to miss her when she's not here. I hope she has a great time and just do what she loves the most. Love you so much you know? Thats all for now before I know it school's going to be over and I'm going to be away for a while. Cant wait for that.

Loved me yesterday, Love me today, Love me tomorrow, Dont let it end.

Happy Birthday Joey!

2009-10-14T15:27:00.003+08:00

Dear Miss J, I just want to let you know how would just love to say Happy Birthday! Oh my you're getting older, haha :P I would like to say that I'm so glad I have you here with me :) Thanks for everything Miss J. Love you and I'll always be your Manja!

Just words from the heart nothing more

2009-09-03T14:46:00.005+08:00

Hold me tight in the rain
Kiss my cheeks and say you'll stay
Baby dont you go away
Baby baby please stay...

Baby could you hold my hand please
Baby could you stay right here
Baby could you promise you wont leave
Baby baby just stay...

Baby do you know how much I need you
Baby do you know how much I love you
Baby cant you see that I want you
Baby baby just stay..

Hold me tight in the rain
Kiss my cheeks and say you'll stay
Baby dont you go away
Baby baby please stay
Please stay, please stay
Please stay.....

Thought of sharing this so here it is. But anyway this is just something I wrote. This is to all I lov e, adore, care and just cant live without. You want more come get me ok? :p

Just Can't Wait

2009-08-24T23:24:00.002+08:00

Mum' s not at home and hope she's having fun. Can't wait for the weekends heading down to genting. Can't wait for november for many reasons. Can't wait to see your face when you see me.
Can't wait to get over all this. Can't wait for next year to get over the other big event and planning to take off to an island after spm. That will be a total blast if I really could really go there. Can't wait for tomorrow got to settle those things. Can't wait for ma to come home, need her cooking! My cooking sucks! :P Thats all for now. You have to wait til I speak again. Bye.

Flatter Me

2009-08-14T23:31:00.003+08:00

Miss J thank you for doing this =D... I'm really tired today yet I'm still awake. The homework pile is still there and it has to be done. I had a great day and looking forward for tomorrow. I'm so glad camp's cancelled. I got a whole list of things to do tomorrow so hope it all goes well. That's all from me now.

I'm not loving its just something else, you'll get it when the time is right.

A little thought thats all...

2009-08-12T18:29:00.002+08:00

I stumbled onto these interesting lines and thought it would be nice to share. So, enjoy..
Some of the unrefusable facts of today's world:
Today we have bigger houses but smaller families,
More degrees yet less common sense,
Advanced medicines but poor health,
Touched moon but no contact with our neighbours,
High income yet less peace of mind,
Free messages but no intention to send a single one,
Don't wait for any special occassion,
Make every moment of life enjoyable,
Love your family, friends, neighbours...

I totally agree with these lines

Enjoying Every Moment

2009-08-11T15:25:00.002+08:00

Things are going fine and I'm pretty pleased with life. I'm enjoying the book I'm reading now. Can't wait for the hols to see what's in store for me. I'm still waiting for the 19th and wish time could just stop. I'm loving everything about now and can't wait for tomorrow. You're really just spicing up my life now. I like it since you're here more often now. I still miss you..

Just Another Ordinary Day

2009-08-08T20:48:00.003+08:00

It's been some time since last blogged. I've been really busy. Had a nice and pleasant day today went out with mum. Just a little relaxing time. Got to start on many things hope it all goes well. In a way I am awaiting for 19th and in a way I'm not. I guess I'll just have to wait and see. Thats all for now and still miss you.

This Is Not A Fairytale

2009-07-26T00:13:00.003+08:00

I am a dreamer. I wont deny. I am naive at times. I want chances. I hold on and days drag on for me. I want happy endings in everything. I'm definitely not a princess in a fairytale and I'm aware of that. Its always been hard to catch me or hold on to me. Its even harder now so dont bother trying. I've been spending my time thinking about things which had no end and now I know its not worth all that after all. I'm lucky to have realised it now before its practically too late. I speak my mind. So, I'm not living a fairytale. I'll make the best of the days I have here. Others can share it if they wish to but if not solitary moments are what I like and love for now.

I've changed and I dont regret. So, too bad. You've lost me and I'm sorry.

2009-07-17T21:57:00.003+08:00

Me and my skipping heart! No doubt to that. I'm enjoying every moment of life. As I'm enjoying anyone cares to join me? You sure know where to find me.Thats all from me now..

PS: I have no regrets :P

I've not gone anywhere

2009-07-16T17:23:00.006+08:00

I guess things have changed and in no time the 5th month is going to pass. I still feel same. Same tears and feelings. I guess some things are meant to change but some are just meant to stay the same. I am clueless at times but I feel a sense of change in me. Maybe its just this mixture of emotions stirring in me. But I am living my life. Can't wait to be free. I'm just enjoying every moment alone. The moments where I can only hear my voice and nothing else comes in my way. Just me and only me. I don't regret what I've done and said. I got 1 life and no other and I'm not going to waste it. You want me, come get me. I'm not going to be waiting here forever so make your move. They are those moments which I still hate but things seem brighter. I'm getting older and I am changing not for anyone but me. My life has now evolved around myself and I'm happy it has. I'm still missing you like crazy and no one is ever going to replace you and no one has. You filled those empty holes. Now you make me wonder, who is going to help me fill those holes? I wonder. But on the bright side I will always have me and me. I will always have you in my thoughts, forever.

You decide the rest and I'm not making any moves ok?

Will You Be There?

2009-07-10T19:35:00.001+08:00

This video is simply amazing! I love the background choir and the lyrics is absolutely wonderful. Not forgetting Michael Jackson, What more can I say when the whole world says his great! I love the last part when MJ speaks. His words are full of meaning. I love you MJ!

Pa I know you loved him and because of you I love him even more!

A Tribute

2009-06-26T20:12:00.000+08:00

A little tribute to Michael Jackson. One wonderful, extraodinary, and unique individual. The world's just lost one talented soul. My favourite songs of his are you are not alone, man in the mirror, beat it, heal the world and his famous moon walk! No one will be able to do that believe me....RIP Michael Jackson!

Will definitely miss you!

I'm missing you like mad

2009-06-19T21:09:00.000+08:00

First time without you. No one's really replaced you. Your place in my heart is permanent. Everyday reminds me of you. I hope I've made you proud. I'm changing to the better now. More matured than you think. I just wish you were here. You would know what to say for this present moment. But, I don't know if you know but I love you with all my heart. You may not be here but you're in my thoughts. Happy Father's Day Pa! Love you always.

I will always be your baby girl

Things Definitely Changes

2009-06-11T23:58:00.000+08:00

Doing and done alot of cleaning. Got rid of many things. I guess its just a start of moving on. Its hard letting go so much but I guess there comes a point when you just have to let go. The place I call home is now much cleaner I guess. That's definitely a relieve. I'm glad that life's going pretty well. Forgetting those flaws but I'm living my life. I'm smiling now and ready for tomorrow. So much of tomorrow, I'm going to school. I hope Mrs R is in a good and pleasant mood. I'm not going to get intimidated by anyone that's pledge for now.

I'm sick of this but I seriously have no time

Words

2009-06-07T23:35:00.000+08:00

Words I've not spoken has now become even more harder to express. I've changed I dont deny that. I've become even more speechless for some reason. I still miss you by the way. I'm glad things are better now. I still wish it could be better. I guess I would never be satisfied. But I know I'm living my life to the fullest. Can;t be bothered any longer. I only got 1 life to prove myself so here I stand. I've realised life isn't that bad after all. I may feel that way at times but I know my way now. I know where I'm heading to. 1 goal for my this life of mine. I'm satisfied in many ways today I can say. I'm starting anew. I'm changing even more. I guess its time I did. But, I'm still here. I'm still who I am.

Signing off with lots of love, Manjira

Makes Me Recall How Things Use To Be

2009-06-02T23:54:00.000+08:00

You tucked me in, turned out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that
Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back
You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be
And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scared things wouldn't turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me
Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream
Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away
Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
Flap your wings now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true
Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
We've been waiting for this day
All along and knowing just what to do
Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly, butterfly fly away
Butterfly fly away
Butterfly fly away

I'm missing you even more now

I'm Moving My Feet....Yay!

2009-06-02T23:27:00.000+08:00

Pop it, lock it, polka dot it
Country fivin' hip hop hip
Put your arms in the sky, move side to side
Jump to the left, stick it, glide

Zig zag cross the floor
Shuffle in diagonal
When the drums hits hands on your hips
One footed 180 twist

And then a zig zag, step, slide
Lean in left, clap three times
Shake it out, head to toe
Throw it all together, that's how we roll.

It's a song by the way and I can feel the beat of the drums in my ears now

Just Don't Leave Me Alright?

2009-05-28T19:12:00.000+08:00

The little things, you do to me are taking me over,
i wanna show ya everything inside
me all like a nervous heart crazy beating
my feet are stuck here,
against the pavement
i wanna break free,
i wanna make it
closer to your eyes,
get your attention
before you pass me by
So back up back up take another chance
Don’t you mess up mess up I don’t wanna lose you
Wake up wake up this aint just a thing that you
Give up give up don’t you say that I’d be Better off
better off, sleepin by myself and wonderin
If im better off better off, with out you boy
So don't just leave me hanging on
And every time, you notice me by
holdin me closely, and sayin sweet things
i don't believe, that it could be you speekin your mind and,
sayin the real thing
my feet have broke free, and i am leavin
i'm not gonna stand here, feelin lonely but
i wont forget you, and i won't think this
was just a waste of time
So back up back up take another chance
Don’t you mess up mess up I don’t wanna lose you
Wake up wake up this aint just a thing that you
Give up give up don’t you say that I’d be
Better off better off, sleepin by myself and wonderin
If im better off better off, with out you boy
But don't just leave me hangin on

Just thinking of a mysterious guy

midnight bottle

2009-05-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

Midnight bottle take me come with me my memories and everything come back to me
Midnight bottle make it real what feels like make believe so I can see a little more clearly
Like every single move you make kissing me so carefully on the corners of my dreaming eyes
I’ve got a midnight bottle gonna drink it down
A one way ticket takes me to the times we had before
When everything felt so right If only for tonight I’ve got a midnight bottle gonna ease my pain
From all these feelings driving me insane
When I’m with you and everything’s all right if only for tonight
Got a midnight bottle drifting off into the candlelight where I can find you in your timeA midnight bottle I forgot how good it felt to be in a dream just like you had me
Cuz lately I’ve been stumbling feels like I’m recovering
But I think it’s only for tonight
I’ve got a midnight bottle gonna drink it down A one way ticket takes me to the times we had beforeWhen everything felt so right
If only for tonight I’ve got a midnight bottle gonna ease my pain
From all these feelings driving me insane
When I’m with you and everything’s all right if only for tonight
If only for tonight, if only for tonight, if only for tonight
I’ve got a midnight bottle gonna drink it down
A one way ticket takes me to the times we had before
When everything felt so right
If only for tonight I’ve got a midnight bottle gonna ease my pain
From all these feelings driving me insane
When I’m with you and everything’s all right if only for tonight
If only for tonight, if only for tonight, if only for tonight

Just feel so relaxed now

My Expectations

2009-05-26T19:16:00.000+08:00

I thought of things to expect in the near future,
But I guess too much of imagination,
Living life with no expectations is much better.
But anyway birthday is coming up can't seem to think about it at all.
I guess not expecting much this year.
But I'll wait and see...:p

I'm getting older

Just One More Time Can I?

2009-05-16T23:10:00.000+08:00

Making my way downtown
Walking fast Faces passed
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way Through the crowd
And I need you And I miss you And now I wonder....
If I could fall Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know
I'd walk A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you Tonight
It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder If you ever
Think of me 'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your Precious memories '
Cause I need you And I miss you And now I wonder....
If I could fall Into the sky
Do you think time Would pass me by
'Cause you know
I'd walk A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you Tonight And I,
I Don't want to let you know I,
I Drown in your memory I,
I Don't want to let this go I,
I Don't.... Making my way downtown
Walking fast Faces passed
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way Making my way Through the crowd
And I still need you And I still miss you And now I wonder....
If I could fall Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by 'Cause you know I'd walk A thousand miles If I could Just see you...
If I could fall Into the sky
Do you think time Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk A thousand miles If I could Just see you
If I could Just hold you Tonight

I'm missing you so much

The Past Will Always Remain The Past

2009-05-15T21:01:00.000+08:00

I guess words cant express true feelings. How much my heart may yearn today and to hear your voice one more time. Never told all this before but now I guess its time. I put a mask on hiding the truth from the world. You were my world yet no one realised. Why am I saying all this now? I guess there's no harm in telling the truth right? I've waited long enough. I'm still fragile. Still young. There will never be another soul like you in my life. Even if I walk every corner of this planet I wont find what I'm looking for. The truth hurts and I just cant get it out of myself. Its killing inside. Even now, these words are nothing but the deep truth from my heart's core and nothing else. I guess I can move on without regretting. But how can I move on when I couldnt even hear his voice during his last days of life? I miss him. I miss coming back and seeing him sitting on his bed waiting for me. I miss his scent. I miss his touch. I miss those rides we had together. Cant I have another day with you? Just you and me. I'll always be my daddy's girl. I dreamed of my future with you by me in each step I take. I guess life's full of setbacks. I'll always remember you and I wish people could understand how much I'm affected now. I hope people will know how fragile I am now and excuse me. Be with me and there's still hope even without you. I just hope people do. Today, Tomorrow and Always you will always be my favourite.

I've realised how much I need you.

Dear Friend

2009-05-13T18:07:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Stephanie!

Hope you have a great birthday ahead and enjoy yourself to the max! :P Don't ever change! Happy 16th birthday and I know you'll always be 16 days older than me! Haha!

Crazy

2009-05-13T18:03:00.000+08:00

My New Companions

2009-05-08T23:26:00.000+08:00

These are my little babies for now. The one on the top is my baby girl and the one down is my baby boy. Are'nt they cute? Just like the owner! Haha! :P But anyways cant wait to see them grow as both still young. Both quite cheeky and naughty. But so adorable...Alright thats all about my darlings for now. Maybe some other time will show the other sides of these innocent faces.

Love, Manjira.

Best Experiences

2009-05-08T20:12:00.000+08:00

T h e Be s t M o me n t s I n L i f e
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing till your stomach hurts.
3. Enjoying a ride down the country side.
4. Listening to your favorite song on the radio.
5. Going to sleep listening to the rain pouring outside.
6. Getting out of the shower and wrapping yourself with a warm, fuzzy towel.
7. Passing your final exams with good grades.
8. Being a part of an interesting conversation.
9. Finding some money in some old pants.
10. Laughing at yourself.
11. Sharing a wonderful dinner with all your friends.
12. Laughing without a reason.
13. "Accidentally" hearing someone say somthing good about you.
14. Watching the sunset.
15. Listening to a song that reminds you of an important person in your life.
16. Receiving or giving your first kiss.
17. Feeling this buzz in your body when seeing this "special" someone.
18. Having a great time with your friends.
19. Seeing the one you love happy.
20. Wearing the shirt of a person you love and smelling his/her perfume.
21. Visiting an old friend of yours and remembering great memories.
22. Hearing someone telling you "I LOVE YOU" & ABOVE ALL - REACHING THE TARGET SET BY YOU.......... ...WE ALL.....
"True friends come in the good times when we tell them to, and come in the bad times.....without calling."

On My Side, I Know.

2009-04-30T21:54:00.000+08:00

It's getting cold, I've got my big coat on, I know I hear your laugh and I look up smiling at you. I hug your legs and fall asleep. I know you're not scared of anything at all. I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you. I know you were on my side even when I was wrong. And I know I love you for giving me your eyes. For staying back and watching me shine. I know what I know. Now, I know you are on my side.

Getting Over It

2009-04-30T20:52:00.000+08:00

I guess my mind still wonders and is hesitant over this whole thing. Can't really let go nor move on. Reminded constantly. Each day seems to be a battle over these strong emotions which is just overtaking me. Tried to walk with my head held up high, but I didn't really succeed. As I have said before its hard to take off these masks which I have learn to adapt with. Don't really know what are my exact expectations. At times its like I can hear the sound of silence calling. I wonder why? At times I cant hardly move or breathe. I guess this is all my imagination wondering wildly. Imagination getting wild. I'm astonished by certain words. My heart at times yearns for certain things which are just so hard to explain. No words can complete me. I guess I will always feel this way, til I know I'm complete. When the earth stands still and when I know the time is right. Til then I'm going to have to wait.

Surrender

2009-04-29T19:46:00.000+08:00

To Surrender is to remain in silence - not only physically, but mentally.
It means bringing the mind to a state of non-reactivity by surrendering all desires.
In silence, one surrenders thoughts that lead to desire or wishful thinking for a particular outcome.
In all situations and circumstances, to surrender one's wish for a particular outcome, accepting what comes, and not seeking what does not come, is surrender.
This ultimately leads the mind to extinguish itself following the exhausting of all karmas. Surrender means to "let go" and to "allow" what ever is happening, to happen of its own accord, without any desire on your part to interfere or to change it or manipulate it into a desirable outcome.