Silence.

There comes this moment when all you want is silence. To just lay there and do nothing, hear nothing and say nothing. Weird but suprisingly comforting at times. Why silence? When all the little voices mess up your head and all you need is a break from all the noise, thats when silence is all you need. Not to listen to what another has to say, not to digest what comments he/she made, but simply to shut yourself up and not anyone in. Giving yourself the space and time to think on your own and to live not to please others but yourself. Honestly, the whole monthly bad mood's kicking in now. Ahh shucks :/ Well, I'm tired. I truly am. I need a break. I want some pampering too. Dont you realise with more time here you've made him all calm? Oh shiats even I didnt realise that. Fuck la, I need me time. I need you time. I need us time. I'm glad its calmer now. No hitting. scratching and etc. Do I need this excessive thinking? I mean do I need these type of people who're just around for the sake of being around? What am I gaining out of it? Oh damn, I'm beginning to sound like some selfish freak who's thinking what can I squeeze out or get from people :S NONONO, this isnt how I am and I will not be that way. My head screams thats not you, wadya tryna do ! And all I try to tell myself is I got to learn but right now I think I've enough of experiences and its time to just sit back and relax but why cant I ever to listen to myself? Pfft :/Complicating much.