It has been a while since I visited this void or even thought about it. I guess when there was just way too much to think and so much going on I could not think or push aside the fear. Its time to face it and actually do something about it instead of bumming and procrastinating all the time. Looking at the date or what the previous post of mind said is scary. Thinking how I was drowning in such a dark place. Its good to be able to see the light now and it all seems better. Sure feels better too. All these insecurities must fade away soon. However I do it, I must. 

Its weird how you pull through hell and sometimes things are just so vague and you feel like you're trapped in someone else's masterplan yet you know you got to own it. 

So time has come to put the past aside, hold on to what matters and fuck the rest.

It isnt going to be an easy ride, but then again who said anything about it being simple?

Time to quit slacking, pick up where I dropped and prove them haters what they literally missed.