Pass Me A Glass Of Martini Will You?

Perhaps some martini would help heal the pain? Well, shopping does have that special power of turning my frown upside down. Thanks to my wonderful brother who actually had the patience of tagging along. Didnt buy much but ya I'm smiling. I'm glad I'm going away for a few days. Lets bring the house down baby! I'm ok. I'm over you. You can go fuck yourself aite? Imma be rocking out while you're gone. You lost me. Your lost not mine. I'm loving every second of now. I'm free and I've got loads of other serious stuff on my mind now. Hey you Mr, you're just too lame. I'm sorry but you're no longer on my mind nor in my heart. So this is it. Hope you have a great life ahead of you. Goodbye aite? To all those you held my hand through last night, thank you so much and I heart you guys!

Ps: Yes, I'm no longer taken and I'm enjoying every second of now. I'm glad I have you guys :D

This Just Might Be A Confession

I am nowhere near perfect. I eat when I'm bored. I fall for boys easily. I'm vulnerable to believing lies. I'm hoping that one day I won't need a fake smile. I live by quotes that explain exactly what I'm going through. I make up excuses for everything. I have best friends and enemies. I have dramas and memories. Well, thats life. Live it. Love it. Learn from it.

PS: I love you la loose! I hope you know that :D

I'm Going My Own Way.

I just wanted to take one last time and blog about you. Its time I moved on. Its time you became history.

I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try somehow the plan
is always rearranged

It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok...

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place
in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away

I'm leaving today 'cause I've
gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok...

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

You:
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?

Me:
What about trust?

You:
you know I never wanted to hurt you

Me:
and what about me?

You:
What am I supposed to do?

Me:
I gotta leave but I'll miss you

You:
I'll miss you

Me:
so
I've got to move on and be who I am

You:
Why do you have to go?

Me:
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

You:
I'm trying to understand

Me:
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now

You:
I want you to stay

Me:
I wanna go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am

You:
What about us?

Me:
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

You:
I'm trying to understand

Me:
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
I gotta go my own way

You'll always be in my heart. I truly do miss you but I'm going to go my way now. Sorry but I'm done waiting.

Just Another Ordinary Day

It's been some time since last blogged. I've been really busy. Had a nice and pleasant day today went out with mum. Just a little relaxing time. Got to start on many things hope it all goes well. In a way I am awaiting for 19th and in a way I'm not. I guess I'll just have to wait and see. Thats all for now and still miss you.

Me and my skipping heart! No doubt to that. I'm enjoying every moment of life. As I'm enjoying anyone cares to join me? You sure know where to find me.Thats all from me now..

PS: I have no regrets :P

I've not gone anywhere

I guess things have changed and in no time the 5th month is going to pass. I still feel same. Same tears and feelings. I guess some things are meant to change but some are just meant to stay the same. I am clueless at times but I feel a sense of change in me. Maybe its just this mixture of emotions stirring in me. But I am living my life. Can't wait to be free. I'm just enjoying every moment alone. The moments where I can only hear my voice and nothing else comes in my way. Just me and only me. I don't regret what I've done and said. I got 1 life and no other and I'm not going to waste it. You want me, come get me. I'm not going to be waiting here forever so make your move. They are those moments which I still hate but things seem brighter. I'm getting older and I am changing not for anyone but me. My life has now evolved around myself and I'm happy it has. I'm still missing you like crazy and no one is ever going to replace you and no one has. You filled those empty holes. Now you make me wonder, who is going to help me fill those holes? I wonder. But on the bright side I will always have me and me. I will always have you in my thoughts, forever.

You decide the rest and I'm not making any moves ok?

Things Definitely Changes

Doing and done alot of cleaning. Got rid of many things. I guess its just a start of moving on. Its hard letting go so much but I guess there comes a point when you just have to let go. The place I call home is now much cleaner I guess. That's definitely a relieve. I'm glad that life's going pretty well. Forgetting those flaws but I'm living my life. I'm smiling now and ready for tomorrow. So much of tomorrow, I'm going to school. I hope Mrs R is in a good and pleasant mood. I'm not going to get intimidated by anyone that's pledge for now.

I'm sick of this but I seriously have no time

Words

Words I've not spoken has now become even more harder to express. I've changed I dont deny that. I've become even more speechless for some reason. I still miss you by the way. I'm glad things are better now. I still wish it could be better. I guess I would never be satisfied. But I know I'm living my life to the fullest. Can;t be bothered any longer. I only got 1 life to prove myself so here I stand. I've realised life isn't that bad after all. I may feel that way at times but I know my way now. I know where I'm heading to. 1 goal for my this life of mine. I'm satisfied in many ways today I can say. I'm starting anew. I'm changing even more. I guess its time I did. But, I'm still here. I'm still who I am.

Signing off with lots of love, Manjira