ITS BEEN AGES!

We're going to party like its 2012 now!!!
Imma let the songs blast the speakers!
Imma let my heart and soul relax for a bit!
I better get my list of things to do after SPM out now!

Well, lets get serious now.
I'm seriously going to miss those bitches and sluts from school! The shit we together is and will always be the best memories! I'll always be that so called innocent girl people know but you bitches will know that I'm the wild chick hiding! Heart you guys!

Penang! Wow, you're giving me more reasons to live now! Will continue blogging after a swim :D

Can't Wait!

Apart from all the havoc, I'm still smiling :)

When you're down, consider this.

When I hear somebody sigh, "Life is hard," I am always tempted to ask, "Compared to what?"

Its just weeks away! I'm pretty cool about it all but the tension's rising and well I'm getting real scared. Anyways, life's going pretty well. I'm glad with what I have. Thanks for all the love people! A life lived in love will never be dull. You complete me. You give me reasons to live. Love you. Love the world. Spread the love!

It's only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth -- and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up -- that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it was the only one we had. So, live life to the fullest! Don't regret a moment!

My Senses Do Come Alive When You Kiss Me!

You made my day. You certainly did.

You made me smile.

You made me wonder.

You cleared my doubts and Yes, you proved yourself.

I hope you're not another mistake.

You do make my heart sing.

You do make me blush.

You do make me float on cloud 9.

I do love you!

Pass Me A Glass Of Martini Will You?

Perhaps some martini would help heal the pain? Well, shopping does have that special power of turning my frown upside down. Thanks to my wonderful brother who actually had the patience of tagging along. Didnt buy much but ya I'm smiling. I'm glad I'm going away for a few days. Lets bring the house down baby! I'm ok. I'm over you. You can go fuck yourself aite? Imma be rocking out while you're gone. You lost me. Your lost not mine. I'm loving every second of now. I'm free and I've got loads of other serious stuff on my mind now. Hey you Mr, you're just too lame. I'm sorry but you're no longer on my mind nor in my heart. So this is it. Hope you have a great life ahead of you. Goodbye aite? To all those you held my hand through last night, thank you so much and I heart you guys!

Ps: Yes, I'm no longer taken and I'm enjoying every second of now. I'm glad I have you guys :D

Its Over.

Well you wanted it this way and I guess you're happy. So, yes it was total bullshit before this! Oh damn, you're a fucking good actor. Life goes on. Yes, I'll miss you and the way you made me laugh. The tickling feeling you made me feel. Well not all dreams come true. I'm glad you're gone. I'm gona focus on what's important now. So ya fuck you and fuck the so called love you said we had. Loving is hell and yes flirting is bliss.

PS: I dont wish to be taken for now. I want time for myself and only myself.

This Just Might Be A Confession

I am nowhere near perfect. I eat when I'm bored. I fall for boys easily. I'm vulnerable to believing lies. I'm hoping that one day I won't need a fake smile. I live by quotes that explain exactly what I'm going through. I make up excuses for everything. I have best friends and enemies. I have dramas and memories. Well, thats life. Live it. Love it. Learn from it.

PS: I love you la loose! I hope you know that :D

I'm Yours.

You came into my life without a warning.

You mean the world to me now.

You sing. You joke. You sing.

Your flaws. Your smile.

You've got me falling hard for you.

People might say a million things about us or you,

But I'm going to take the risk and trust what we have.

Thank you for coming and rocking my life.

I can't wait to meet you next!

Love you Loose! :D

Well, Things Arent Always That Sweet.

The whole once upon time fairytale ending shit did come to an end. The drama which took place got me speechless. My heart's still beating fast. Your words haunt me. I'll never be the same again. What you did and what you said has left scars but what the hell right? Scars heal but mine dont. So, thanks for being such a jackass. Yes, I did love you but nothing's forever. I will never know if what you felt or what you said was true. But I never lied. I've always been me. Fuck off will you? Whatever you did is clearly insane and I'll never forgive you. I shall bury you in my past.

Note: I'm no longer taken.

It's Friday, I'm in Love.

Don't Haunt Me.

Your sweet words are definitely haunting my thoughts right now.

I want you here now.

That One Heart.

You're that one heart I want.

And out of all the hearts, I picked yours.

Dance Baby Dance.

You made me dance,

You made me float,

You made me smile,

But most of all,

You made me love.

Love Is In The Air Isn't It?

Love is definitely in the air!

It Might Just Be A Permanent Heartbreak.

Oh, the heartbreak's over!

What Hurts The Most.

Nothing hurts when you're around.

Music Is Like Coffee To My Senses.

You are the music to my senses.

It's Simple.

It's Easy.

All I wish to say is,

I Love You.

Note: If you're reading this and wondering. Well, yes I'm taken :)

What Hurts The Most.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok

But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I'm doin' It

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still Harder

Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you

That's what I was trying to do

It Might Just Be a Permanent Heartbreak.

I was much better off before I met you,
Now you're with her.
It pisses me off that you're a-okay
and all that I've got is permanent heartbreak.

Love Is In the Air Isn't It?

love is in the air
birds fly and floating fair
clouds smile from above
kisses flew out of love

love is in the air
scents escape from his hair
twinkling angel eyes
make heartbeats jump twice

love is in his smile
i watch them from the aisle
beams heavenly grace
soul of angelic face

love is in my mind
fantasy of a kind
burning half my soul
the essence of my all

love is in our hearts
when sound of music starts
escaping through the air
and love is everywhere
oh, love is in the air! 

PS: I might just happen to Love You and Only You :)

Dance Baby Dance.

It started off with me standing on your feet.

Holding you tight through every step you took.

I was afraid yet you made me feel good.

We took baby steps and we glided across the floor.

I felt the rhythm living in me.

Thanks to you, Now, I Dance.

I feel it in me now.

Try turning on the music, you'll see what happens.

Its just the adrenalin rush I feel when the beats on.

Words cant really explain it.

Its like you're floating at the same time falling.

Its like you're falling in love and you're dreaming on cloud 9.

Whats left to do?

Absolutely nothing.

Just let the beat and moves take over.

Let my soul live through the dance I dance.

I'm officially a Dance Addict.

So, would care for a dance with me?

That One Heart.

Out of all the hearts, I picked yours.

Don't Haunt Me.

Every time I close my eyes

Its you I see.

Only you.

I miss those moments where I knew you were mine.

I miss you.

I lost myself when you left.

And now I miss me.

I want you back.

Come back will you?

I'm Going My Own Way.

I just wanted to take one last time and blog about you. Its time I moved on. Its time you became history.

I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try somehow the plan
is always rearranged

It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok...

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place
in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall everytime
Another colour turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away

I'm leaving today 'cause I've
gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok...

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

You:
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?

Me:
What about trust?

You:
you know I never wanted to hurt you

Me:
and what about me?

You:
What am I supposed to do?

Me:
I gotta leave but I'll miss you

You:
I'll miss you

Me:
so
I've got to move on and be who I am

You:
Why do you have to go?

Me:
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

You:
I'm trying to understand

Me:
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now

You:
I want you to stay

Me:
I wanna go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am

You:
What about us?

Me:
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

You:
I'm trying to understand

Me:
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
I gotta go my own way

You'll always be in my heart. I truly do miss you but I'm going to go my way now. Sorry but I'm done waiting.

I Have A H.P

Lets see My H.P has been with me for quite some time.

And what can I say about her?

She's awesome.

I heart her and I so cant wait to hang with her.

Thanks for everything honey.

We shall wear bikinis and hang out some day k?

People shall watch and burn...

I love you, H.P

Bila nak party ni? Hahaha :P

My I.B.C

I was determined not to be caught again.

But here I am, once again.

You are really a sweet talker.

In a few hours, you definitely swept me off my feet.

With your simple ways and complicated you,

Here I am, falling for you.

Hope I'm right this time.

Guess what, I think I might just have an Itsy Bitsy Crush on You.

Senorita

Lady in the red saree,

Looking smashing.

She caught everyone's attention.

She was indeed smoking hot.

He went up to her,

Held her hand and said,

Hey you Miss Sexy, could we have this dance?

She said Yes and thats how the night started.

You and Me.

You and Me.

Under the moonlight we'll rock.

I might just do the opposite.

Don't you break my heart,

Coz I might just break yours.

One hell of a Night

What a night! Thanks Ma.

Spot me? :D

Sweep Me Off My Feet

Will you ever cross the skies for me?

What is it that runs through your mind?

I want to have this kind of moment with you too.

Is it possible? :P

Lets Rock it.

Lets make this last.

Lets make the best out of this.

One chance is all we've got.

You dare to take the risk?

We've had our memories.

Its time we made new ones.

Don't stop me!

Have you seen the way I rock?

Well the reason I rock this much is you.

You, you, you...

Wanna join?

Rocking isnt that bad after all.

I'll miss you.

You came, you stayed and you rocked every minute of it.

Thanks for everything. Rock on aite? :)

Tell me where did you come from?

I sat down wondering.

Then you came into my mind.

I smiled wide.

Those days when there was only you and me were paradise.

So, tell me how did you find me?

How did an angel like you pop into my life?

I'm loving everything about you.

Mesmerise me will you?

Everything We're Not

This is how we completed each other

So, relativity it is.

I'll see you in my dreams, Waiting to say,

I miss you and I'm so sorry.

Cause in my mind,
Its always You, You, You.
Its like being Love Sick.

Someone then asked me if I missed you,
I didn't answer.
I just closed my eyes and walked away.
But then in my heart I whispered, "So Much".
I miss you more than words can say.

Love is nothing. It's pathetic yet its a sensation.
It's fragile yet its everything. It's unpredictable yet its life. It's full of sorrow yet its passion.
It's cruel yet its a treasure. It's a drug yet its a flame. It's complex yet its unconditional.
It's blind yet its affection. It's blind yet its happiness. It's a mystery its real.

Now I believe,
Don't fall for someone unless they're willing to catch you.

On top of everything,
I'm going to smile like nothing is wrong,
Talk like everything is perfect,
Act like it is all a Dream,
And pretend it is not hurting me at all.

I always thought to never give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about.
But now I know. Giving up is necessary.

Nobody understands how much I miss you.
I miss how much we used to talk
and I miss the things we used to do.
I try not to admit to myself
That I still feel this way.
Nobody knows that I still wake up
Thinking of you each day.
I still think of you and I really do miss you.
I would give up everything I have
To be everything we're not.

The truth is I truly miss you and I just do not know what am I going to do without you?

No One's Perfect

I sit here thinking when's life really going to satisfy me,

I sit here wondering are dreams ever going to fulfill me,

I sit here smiling as flashes of those days run through my mind,

I sit here and realise why am I even sitting here?

When there's a whole world waiting out there,

When there seems to be so many chances and possibilities,

When there's me and my needs,

And thats when I realised no one's perfect.

I am who I am. I sit and gaze of my future.

I'm looking forward for that future I always see.

But, there's now for me to think about.

There's you in my thoughts too.

Why are you even there?

What are you doing in my thoughts?

And thats when I realised even my thoughts arent perfect.

I start humming a tune which seems pretty familiar and sense something amiss.

That tune reminds me of something.

I feel the beat of that tune taking over inside of me.

It gets stronger and there a song comes out from within

But that song wasnt what I was looking for

And thats when I realised even the music in me isnt perfect.

People pass by, they say hi and as normal I say hi back.

I saw you and I thought I knew you

But not all thought are always true.

I listened whenever you spoke hoping to learn more,

But then when things got a little complicated, wrong, messy

And thats when I realised even others arent perfect.

So, if no one and nothing is perfect, who are we trying to fool by putting in on masks, acting nice and trying to be perfect? Life's never perfect. Accept the facts, hide the lies and live on. Remember, no one's perfect.

Hello :)

Its been almost a month since I last blogged but here I am updating it now. Intervensi's next week and it sucks. The tension is all ready is rising even though its just 2nd week of school. I'm really sleep deprived now yet and I'm still smiling. I'm glad I have you and you know why I always say this. Slowly I look forward for you each day. So, stay dont you dare go away! Senior year is going pretty well forgetting the homework pile awaiting me and the whole exam chapter. I've been suffering from a lot of blurness lately and I feel myself getting wild! Months are passing by and its going to be a year in no time. I'm pushing myself away from that topic but I'm afraid and I just hope I'll pull myself through. Finally to those who rock my world, I just want to say I love you all so much :D