Words have the power of moving souls and minds. As disturbing as it sounds I personally do not like the effect or the toll that words do to me. Its just real unfair but at the same time you use it too. So why is it totally not cool when the other uses it? Look you're pissed or cranky or unhappy, whatever may be the emotion thats over ruling your mind, you do not need to let it show. I can sense the fury and aura. Just shut it and if its important we'll talk about it if not just rub it off will you? You want things to work. You want things your way but hey you forgot that I'm in it too? What about my ways? Or what I want? Just do not be a selfish douche. You're better than that and I know it. Its so frustrating I swear when you know you can do better but you're just way too lazy to even try. I wish I had the patience. Sadly, I do not. I'm just way too mindfucked already. I'm just going to wait and see. I've just been far too patient. After today or perhaps another week I got to wait til I can focus on me. I'm done. Thats it.

I'm done. I'm seriously done this time. I do not want to even consider myself ever opening my mouth again. I know its close to impossible for me to do it on my own. But I'm tired of trying and I'm giving up. Cause its just leading me to heart ache after heart ache. People come and go, yes I've learnt to accept that but when the ones you're so fond of, fail to do what they're suppose to do, you just feel like everything's gone. Like its all ending cause everything just leads you to a dead end. 

I swear I'm trying my very best to feel as free as I can. For just one second, without worries or someone to think about. Its painful that everything you thought you owned or you could depend on was just fake. I truly am giving up. I do not want to share anything with anyone. I just want the two most important people in my life to be happy and I guess seeing them happy would make me happy. I wish I could run away like right away. Have an adventure or just enjoy solitary for a while. I want to be able to smile without hesitating. Laugh without thinking. And trust without doubting. But sadly, I do not trust anything and anyone anymore. Just loosing it all. I'm just hoping I'd feel better real soon. Cause all this crying isn't helping at all. 

Mood swings; they come and go. If you think its worth hurting someone just cause you’re moods not making you smile then go ahead. But allow me to give you a heads up aite? Like how your mood swings come and go not everyone around you would have the patience to tolerate you and be by you through it all. Like how your mood shows its colours, these people coping with you might just turn around and tell you to face the world alone then you’ll just realise that these mood swings you get and fight for so much is no where near how much these people are worth. Go figure.

The moon greets you every night and the stars come along too. I might not greet you each day but Hey, you do run around my mind and I cant seem to chase you out. Do I run through yours? Well, if I do. I’m sorry but I like being there. Its real comfy you know? As much as the moon lightens up the dark skies, I can never deny that you light me up. 

Don’t stop aite?

Some things seem so clear right now but yes the truth always hurts but isn't it part of life to fall a million times and get back up all on your own? I'll be who I wana be. I know who's worth dying for, who's fighting for, who's worth every ounce of love, who's just a piece of shit, who's just bugging your life and who's just not worth your every second. Like how clouds pass by, people pass by too. You can never grab a cloud and force it to stay. Likewise, people aren't meant to stay. At some point they'll all leave. Hold on to yourself more than anything else. Love yourself more than anything else. Stop blaming the world. Look into the mirror, and ask what more can you do to at least try to be close to perfect. Please yourself. Then think of pleasing others. Looks aren't everything. It might be the most important thing right now but in a few years time, a decade perhaps, nah things change. Think and you'll know there's a lot more than just right now. Only if you pay a little attention.

I might not stop to say thank you to you each day but I'm truly thankful that I have people like you by me. It makes life feel so much more better. In short, I'm just going my way and I'll do what I want and say what I feel. You're nothing like me. I do not care if its you being jealous or mad or what ever you call it. I couldn't care less. But to those whose close to me, I might not tell you but I'm glad that each every one of you just mean so much to me right now and always will. Lies may appear to be more stronger. Rumours might speak louder than the truth but Hey, the truth will find when the time's right. So sit back relax and let karma and life do its job. You just stick yours. Pretty simple isn't it? 

Songs are written for a reason. Lifes are connected for a reason. You coming into mine obviously has a reason too. Perhaps finding the exact words to complete my list of why you’re so damn important to me will never be complete. Why don’t you just pause for a bit, look into my eyes, and you’ll know exactly why I’m yours.

There’s 7 billion people on this planet, yet I only wana live and grow old with you.

Like how people say no ones ever too old for cartoons, we’re never too old for a little romanticness.