I'm done. I'm seriously done this time. I do not want to even consider myself ever opening my mouth again. I know its close to impossible for me to do it on my own. But I'm tired of trying and I'm giving up. Cause its just leading me to heart ache after heart ache. People come and go, yes I've learnt to accept that but when the ones you're so fond of, fail to do what they're suppose to do, you just feel like everything's gone. Like its all ending cause everything just leads you to a dead end. 

I swear I'm trying my very best to feel as free as I can. For just one second, without worries or someone to think about. Its painful that everything you thought you owned or you could depend on was just fake. I truly am giving up. I do not want to share anything with anyone. I just want the two most important people in my life to be happy and I guess seeing them happy would make me happy. I wish I could run away like right away. Have an adventure or just enjoy solitary for a while. I want to be able to smile without hesitating. Laugh without thinking. And trust without doubting. But sadly, I do not trust anything and anyone anymore. Just loosing it all. I'm just hoping I'd feel better real soon. Cause all this crying isn't helping at all.